For the last couple of years I’ve been doing a major clean up of my life. It wasn’t planned, it just happened. Slowly and steadily. Things that were not good but I kept for ages (sometimes not knowing they were not good, sometimes knowing but trying not to see it) fell out of my life. I was left with very little, I then realised. Very little but very precious-the really worth having. Still the other parts of my life weren’t there.

Is it time to start gathering again? I do feel like I’ve been ‘acquiring’ some new, good ‘stuff’. Maybe you have to get rid of the bad to make place for the good. It might take a while but I think that step by step I will have it. This is only the beginning.

And if not, as long as I don’t lose the really precious things/people than all is good

The sad thing is: I was expecting this ever since they chose the manager… If I knew how come they didn’t? Sigh…

Just because you’ve suffered, you don’t have the right to do the same to others. Hypocrisy, cruelty, crime – there is never an excuse for it. You should be stopped! But no one has the guts, not even the ones who consider themselves strong and fair. Makes me think who are the real hypocrites.

Lately the feeling of not having time to do anything has been stronger than ever. Not even a 3 day weekend is enough. And it certainly isn’t enough to rest. Go here, go there, buy this, buy that, meet people, eat, sleep…Since lovely Kaia was born there is always a million things to do and no time to do it. She’s already used to spending lots of time in the car going places. The worst is when there is not enough time to play with her (especially Russ). Luckily we always manage even if for a short time, but it never seems enough. She is the priority so the rest will have to go slow. It will be a long time until I get the chance to do things (PhD included) and have the house up to my cleanlinesses standards. But it’s so worth it. She is the sweetest, loveliest chubbiest ever!

Some ‘things’ change our lives. They change everything that we are down to the last atom. They are so important you think you can’t live without them. They make you happier than anything else and willing to do anything. These ‘things’ are so important they shouldn’t be denied to anyone. Everyone should be able to have them and be able to accomplish that kind of happiness. Unfortunately it isn’t so.

Because they are so important they overcome any problems and disagreements. Despite these problems and disagreements I wish that everyone who will cherish and love them gets them.

First I couldn’t move because I was pregnant. Then because I’d just given birth to my lovely daughter and needed to recover.
Then I got ill. Well Russ and I got terribly ill on what was supposed to be one of the warmest loveliest day of the year so far. Stuck at home not being able to move

Now I’m ill again. My body hurts like hell, I’m barely able to move. I’ve been like this for more than 5 days and no signs of getting better. And guess what? It’s been fantastic days outside and I’m stuck in bed again. I can’t even take care of Kaia properly. Fortunately the nursery had an extra place for her yesterday and the day before so all I needed was to ask fantastic Sue and Sophie to pick her up and help me until Russ got home. And the house is at a state. It looks like I’ll never be able to clean it.

When will I stop getting ill???

After 4 years of living in this country I still can’t get used to certain foods. One of them is chip buttie.
Chips in bread??? That is just wrong!!!!

Why do I still bother?

Maybe because I care…

Why do I care?

Maybe because I’m human, or just stupid.

In the end the result is the same: a waste of time and patience and nothing changes…

Not even I change, cos I keep trying and hoping even though there are no results… sigh…

A fantastic picture of Britain! Nothing but white.

I love snow but it getting too much. Fortunately we haven’t had to leave the house lately but tomorrow we do and I can’t think of leaving the driveway with our car that has no fancy technology to control it (no traction control or even ABS).

Even though I haven’t left the house today I can tell it’s cold – the normal setting for the heating are not enough to keep us cosy as before. -10 is the forecast for tonight .

The only problem is that there is no sign of things getting better – more snow for the weekend- and the councils are running out of grit which means even more icy roads! Lets hope for the best and that if Tubbs decides to make an early appearance, we have a safe trip.

In the mean time I am enjoying the white!